rest is wad i ought to do now..

went to orchard with amy today..
initially wanted to go art friend to buy some stuff..
but in the end i went to buy moon cake -_-
haha..cuz mummy wants snow skin moon cake..
so i went to take a look at their fair :))
bought one box from the hong kong sth sth de..
taste nice :) the regent hotel's mooncake also not bad..
amy says so too :))
but wad for buy for them ? :(
they also keep scolding me :(
sometimes i'm thinking..wad for i treat my family and friends so nice..
wad do i get in return ??
scolding from them, betray, backstabbing..
living in this world is really tiring..
you won't know until the very last minute..
as wad i say, life is full of ups and down..
but in between these ups and down, how many people
can tolerate this kind of sufferings ?
haix..
tml band resume already..don't really wish to go..
i think i'm kind of weird..
a weirdo !!! wahahaha..
let me rest can...
i'm really tired..i am unable to continue my journey anymore..
~i'm not missing anyone actually~

~my bo chap attitude is back!~




~kuku gerl is tired, and she needs a rest~

1 day past..

i'm wondering.....
treating you so nice, care for you.....
hmmmm...haha...nothing :D
lalah~~
ytd went for a seminar at SMU....
haha...interesting...get to know lots of things....
like bio diesels, and zero energy waste :))
haha...and a group from NUS researching on E-bailing...
the paperless thingy...haha....
so guys ! from now on, we should all use E-bailing instead
of the telecom people sending through snail mails ! :))
haha....went to meet zhen jun and michelle after the seminar....
went to FTP together :D
heehee...saw hong ghee, hui min, idham....
had so much fun there....
the laughter, mr lim's conducting, jokes, teasing.....
so memorable....like i'm still living in the past...haha
though i can't play really much...but still ! managable !
haha....yong yong so cute !!!!! :D haa
feel like pinching him and tease him !
wahaha !!!!
i so good....he wont scared of me de la !
haha..... :P jama zhen jun raf they all scared i scare him off....wahaha !!!!
how will !!! :D :D :D
HEH HEH !!! :P
~will i be able to commit?~




~kuku gerl miss the fun...missing you..~

WHY

sometimes i really dont know wads wrong with me....
those few words u wrote...
can actually easily influence others....
at times, i really feel like asking...haha.... :))
but i nvr open my mouth...
inside too much gold liao...haha...
wad's stopping me from asking ?? haix....
life is full of ups and down...
haha...heehee..hoho....humph *familiar* ?
HAHA !!
why are u sad ?
why are u happy ?
why this ?
why that ?
why why ???
do you wish to tell me why ??



~kuku gerl dunno why~

rank rank rank :))

my ranking of animals~~ :D
1st: pig
2nd: horse
3rd: cow
4th: tiger
5th: sheep


PIG : MONEY
HORSE : FAMILY
COW : CAREER
TIGER : PRIDE
SHEEP : LOVE


YEAH !!!! i finally get rid of LOVE !!!!!
wahahahaha :D :D


~kuku gerl has get rid of love ! :D ~

life at yumin pri...~~~ :))

today so tired !!!
wake up at 4 plus because i was sent to
yumin primary school which is at tampiness !!!!!
oh my god !!!!
and the cher says go pasir ris take bus...but the
control station people say tamp... ZZZ~~
reach there at 730AM ! haha.......
the kids are so damn super cute !
but some are quite rude~~
~so young yet so rude..~
got 6 of us today....
ericko, arief, lynn, me, lixia and hwee ling....
haha !!!!! not bad la~~ :D
we went to their canteen during our tea break....
haha !!!! their serving portion is very little....
haha !!! so ericko they all ask auntie to add more...
and he buy 2 plates of food~~ FUNNNY !!!!!!!
not bad la~ quite fun :D
lots of funny things happen :D
heehee....
after lunch, went back to their music room and ROT...
haha.....the staff nurses was doing their stuff and we chit chatting...
haha.....TTSH better....at least got st to do~~~....
haha!!! today ivan day off ! haha...
den ho nini saw him at amk...went to kai kai...
hmmmm....tml gg to health promotion board again !!!
sian sian sian....whole day lecture lor !
oh my.....help me please....i'm gonna fall asleep for sure.....
hmmmm...going out with sabi kesha esther CAI :) they all tml...
before that shall go for some shopping alone :)
buy some stuff ^^ den meet them....
shall end here !
tomorrow still have to meet lynn they all at 730 outram !
~tomorrow will be a better day~ :D



~kuku gerl~
~just say out your feelings and don keep writing those emo words~ :)

tiredness let me think more..

hmmmmm....haven been updating for few days....
haha.......this few days so happening until i not enough sleep...
and i almost fell sick on the first day of attachment...

let me summarize from ......
22nd of aug :))
after paper, went to band room to pei zhijie...
haa....i watch my meteor garden and he doing his own stuff...
hahah.....though its a very old show...
but i still find it rather nice....
cried for a few scene...hmmmm...
dao ming si so sweet :))
how i wish that someone treats me the same way too :))
*RUBBISH*
after a while ray appear....as he was having
his last paper at 4pm...
but in the end, he came in and watch tgt with me -_-"
den went off at 1 plus to meet my friend at city hall....
they went to buy electric guitar... :))
settled down at a thai coffee shop....haha...
ate my clay pot tomyam mee...
soup is nice ....but i didn't know that e mee is e yellow noodle :((
i don like yellow noodle :(
after that we shop for a while as my friend is celebrating her birthday tml and his boyfriend's birthday is on friday.....so went to shop .....den went home :))
happy birthday sarahjane and aaron yap ! :D

23rd of aug
CHALET TIME ! :D
hmmmm...early in the morning went to rent VCDs for later on chalet...
haha....wanted to have a movie marathon.....but buay tahan...
hahha...wanted to sleep but my cousin don let me :(
den until 4am, they wanted to eat mac breakfast =x
my sister, teresa, samantha, meiling, gabriel, jie feng, sun jie, me & wei ting...
i'm like so tired la~ so i went there to sleep instead...
haha....cuz i didn't sleep on the previous night ! :((
haha.....the birthday party went on smoothly~ :D
was great ! was fun ! :)
though i didn't get to taste the food from the caterer
and only ate a few satay crab sticks and otah :(
as i was busy barbequeing the food for them with gabriel and jie feng...
and they keep critising !!! SO SAD...
haha......half way through, i went upstairs to play poker...
haha.....ah hui kor kor everytime cheat small kid's $$$
haha......booooooo ~~~ ! =D
* errs....not my money actually =P it's my sis ! * wahahah :D
jayden and kelly was like e host la~ :)
so cute.... :D they keep entertaining people :D
whereas clarice.....guess she was tired bahx...so she was very quiet for e whole evening ! :(
had lots of fun..though tiring....
and my sis didn't even say thank you to me....
SIAN ! furthermore i injured myself when helping her la~~ zzz....
haha...though its a minor injury =P
wahahaha !!!!!

24th of aug
stayed throughout until 24th...went to eat subway at 11 plus...
hmmmm....i ordered subway club :D
hhaha !!! :D
so fullllll !!!! though nice~ :D
after that went back to chalet and sleep~~~until evening.....
den kor kor drive me home....
was playing with e 2 small ones on e car la~~
haha......CUTE ^^
den reach home....sleep again....until mid night....
end of my day ~~~ haha....


25th of aug
hmmmm...woke up at around 5 to bath...den went out....
meet weekeng thiviya and nini....
first day of work in ward 12C...sian...
haha....saw lots of 12Ds nurses wor.....
MISS THEM ! :)
manage to chat with them awhile :)
but nvr saw e brother :(
hahaahaha.......
this time round i was in e males cubicle....so basically nth much to do....
i don dare to touch them....cuz their injuries is much more serious....
here break there break.....almost all is from car accident.. =x
so scary......
i very admire nurse ivan....though he seldom smile....
but...when comes to work, he is vey competent....
after work...went to cut my hair...
initially wanted to trim only...
BUT...............now my hair is so short !!! so ugly :((
haix....shall not talk about it....


TODAY !
hah.....went to run at 8am....
hmmmm....reached home, bloggg.....
nth to blog lei......
nobody to misss.....nobody to write...just nth to write.....
i've learnt to let go anything that doesn't belong to me.....
it's no use holding onto it till so tight...
who cares ?!? no one cares...
so what for am i doing all this silly things...
just let go....when its yours, eventually it will be yours...
maybe from now onwards i'll return back to normal bahx...
hmmmm...don ask me wad happen when i suddenly becomes quiet :))
because, that's me...i'm not a chit chatter....or chatter box...
or sometimes i would rather says it's because i'm lazy to open my mouth..
haha....or simply i have nth to talk to you....cuz my brain is dead !
haha......why am i talking rubbish again.....hahaahaha.......

*another tired day for me today again*


~kuku gerl thinks through and smiled~

plans plans plans :))

just finished my 3rd paper two hour ago worrx... :))
e paper...hmmm...okok la~
not as hard as what i thought :D
this coming friday is my last paper !
pharmacology =x
sian arh sian.... hahaaaa................
i'm craving to watch meteor garden !!!!!
so i went to borrowed from my friend and watch it
on this friday !!! wahahah :D
den maybe go have my cervical injection bah :((
don't know leh...haha....
after that going town... :))
which part of town ?? DUNNO ! :P
haha !
den the following day going for chaletttt !!! :D
haven buy anything for my eldest sister ehh.....die....
hmmmm.....and next week i gonna find some time to meet
amy and siying out...cuz ytd is siying's birthday :))
GIRL, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.... :))
have been eating lots of chocolates this few days sia....
shall refrain myself from eating stating from nowwwwww !!! :((
scared later i got diabetes ehhh.....
hmmmm....and this few days my hand keep shivering.. :((
dunno why.....tell my sister...all bo chap me...
SADD ARH !
sian...the older i am, the more illness i've got...
SHIT DE NEH................hahah......
hah.....just now went home with ms sharon...
such a coincidence...hah !!!
she wanna meet our class on the first week of the
next semester....hmmmm....
haha...its been a long time since she last see us ! :D
hahha..........
next week my attachment gonna start again....
intend to rebond hair de leh.....
but attachment must bundle up.......so not going le...haha...
after this exam i'm going to sleep like a pig !!! hahah :P
oh dear.....haven think of wad to make for my friend's
birthday present ! hmmmm...should be something special :D
cuz i'm not sure whether is it the last time i'm giving my friend :(
*HIGH CHANCE WOR*



promise my 2nd sister ivy that i'll write a blog on her !
ahha !!! siao...haha =D
cuz last week she damn emo lah~
den keep telling her uncle stories to me...
expect me to hear when i'm having exam and a don have
the mood to listen ! cuz i'm troubled by some things...too~
haha....hmmmm...
ivy, i've blog liao ! hahha .... LOL
hmmmmm....after my attachment i'm going to find
some work and do...don wish to slack my life off....



i simply hate people who smokes...
you want to smoke, can !
BUT DON'T SMOKE YOUR CIGAR RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME !
i will be pissed off.......
jolly well get out of my sight...before i flare up....
hmmmmm.....
i hate it ! :((
haix...why is my hand shivering non-stop ?!?! :((
SUFFERING.......
and today is 20082008 !!!
wad a nice day !!! :D


~shall go out for a walk and get inspired~



~kuku gerl hates smokers !!~

happy day

yesterday i had my first paper ohhhhh~~~ :))
hhaaha !!! initially was scared...
cuz i really don't know wad type of question they will ask ! -_-"
but....it went fine ^^
but as for the SAQ, i like keep repeating ans...haha !!!
after exams went to meet zhijie for breakfast !
haha...had hotcakes...
but couldn't eat finish cuz of my stupid ulcer..zzz...
after eating....timothy pass zhijie the keys....
hahahah.....den went to band room to studyyyy......
met chasoon ......den go band room study together.......
chasoon was playing pianooooooo.........
hahah.....i oso wanna learnnnn....
hmmmmm....
yesterday i was so tired ....so i studied for awhile and
i fall asleep.....haha....and e room was so coldd.....zzz...
only 3 ppl and they switch on all air cons...haha..
while studying until halfway.....
someone suddenly pop in and was trying to scare people.... !
haha !! *so scared* haha !!
trying to think of his catch phrase:
"A tree living in your heart"
at first i dunno wad he refering....until he say...
hah !!! DOTS !
jiejun came in awhile later after timothy went off....
she came in 'shouting' : "i'm so scared..."
wahahaha....so funny :))
cuz she's having her exam at 4....haha...
so me and zhijie accompanied her out....
THEN THE ZHIJIE KEEP GLANCING AT GERLS...........
what the hell.....ONION !!!!!!
humph.....everyone is the same..............
go upstairs lah~ don come down liao....... :(
haha..........~why am i so agitated~
zzz.....haha...siao liao.....hahahaha !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
around 5 plus...jason timothy came in...
[first time seeing you using that pen :D]
cuz the alumnis going to have their practice at 7....
den allan jiejun.....hmmmm.....
den sheila..........
and she forgotten my name !!!! :(((
CRIES !!!!
she call me jasmine !!!!!!!
SO SAD............wahahahah :x
hmmmmmm....went to eat with themmm....
at the usual hangout place.........
hmmmm........went home after that...
then they go hub...
i also wanna go...but i'm too tired...
having syncope......[haha] !!!!
and got to study too......so went home with jiejun after eating lo......
jiejun dote her sister so much !!!!!
she bought 8 ez-link card stickers for her !!!!
which cost 8 bucks lah~......
dots dots dots.....haha !
so funny :))
hmmmm.......den reached home around 9 pluss....
slept at around 10 plus.....
THE END~
lols...............hahah............. !!!!


26 MORE DAYS !

~kuku gerl was happy chatting with you :)~

hmmm

29 MORE DAYS


~kuku gerl~

NO TITLE !

i've yet to eat my burger kinggggggg......
hahaha.....
and and and.....
who got lobang !! i wann workkkk....
but for only one month....
cuz i will be having attachment on 25 aug to 12 sept...
haha....those who wanna date me can date me
after 12 sept !! :D
yipee !! :DD
during attachment also can la...
for the sake of you......tired also worth it ^^
*waah..hair stand* zzz.....
AMY must rmb to travel down to novena for
the sake of your dearest yvonne ok ! :D
wahhaha !!! :DD

TO AMY: if coincidence, you will have a chance
to meet your long lost teacher also...
who is DAVID CHIEN !!! haha......
lolx.......... have our schedule fully packed alright ^^
and remember to tell me your ans asap
by next week...[ whether you're playing for the year end concert]

i'm so shock to hear that michelle is playing for the year end concert
for OBOG !!! :D so glad ^^
all those who're playing is those i yearn to see
long time ago ! :D
rafidah, jama aka mama, michelle [loves :))],
zhenjun [loves :))], suhaila...haha....
raudhah maybe playing too ^^
haha........
REUNION OF THE HORNIST....lols...
hhaaha...looking forward for their practices ^^
looking forward on 1st sept also....
haha.....nyp resume ! :DD
haha...alright...shall end my post...
*30 MORE DAYS*


~kuku gerl says, CHEER UP CHEER UP !! :D ~

self - evaluation :))

i miss this attachment :(
though its tiring...really..very very tiring...SHECK...
people keep falling sick....damn sleepy during our shift...
shivering....very cold...den very hot...
the temperature really sucks....
dryness of skin...eating pattern changed...
though we complained so much.....
overall....we really enjoyed ourselves....
have to see those doctors/ medical students face....
black & proud face is wad i can say.....
however some of the doctors /medical students are quite good..
not all are bad la...some of them very cute ^^
but too bad..i don have e chance to see them again le....
the staff nurses...ya...they may be fussy...fierce at times.....
they're good....when treating students....
and as for those indians...
i'm not being racist...i really get pissed by them....not only me...
hmmm....and as for students ourselves....
we learnt alot....within ourselves, we quarrelled...
played...laughed...happy/unhappy moments....
i enjoyed......helping each other...the team work...
the crappy-ness during work....our nonsense... :))
working with different kinds of people with different kinds
of characters..... :))with different age of students...
learnt alot....babies...feeding, bathe, why they cry...
changing of diapers....cruel moments...sad moments....happy.....
even touched moments...
hmmmm.... i simply love you guys....
thanks so much....staff nurses...lecturers...students...
doctors...patients...their relatives....friends for giving mentally
and emotionally support.....
they tolerate my nonsense....my moody face and cheered me up :))
hmmmm....nevertheless, my family :))
though they did nothing....hah !! but hearing me nag all day long :P
heehee.....
LAST BUT NOT LEAST :))
and those whom i kajiao-ed when i'm bored... :P
heehee :D
LOVES :))
THANK YOU GUYS !! :D


~kuku gerl loves youyouyouyouyouyou!!!!!...wont changeeeee !!!! :D ~

stress liao..................

yesterday is my last day of attachment

and is also my last day in ward 32 ~~ !!!

wahahaha....was kinda happy bah...cuz its really quite tiring....

but....emo-ed...haha...cuz no chance to carry the babies alr...

after my shift went to meet zhijie and gang ...

haha...tot they got go but they nvr worr.. :(

haha...

so glad that i got to see them...after such a long time...

*my disappearance from band* lols...

all those crappy stuffs...hahah ! :D

hmmmm...wanted to meet kesha too...

but...she cant go.......... SAD !

exams are VERY NEAR !!!!!!!

14 aug : PPR & MEDI SOCIO

18 aug : ADULT NURSING

20 aug : BIOSCIENCE

22 aug : PHARMACO

and the following day after my last paper got chalet !!!!!

YIPEEE !!! :D

den monday ATTACHMENT again.....haix....

counting down for someone's birthday....

31 MORE DAYS TO GO !!! ^^

maybe its the last time i will give bah....

sad to say....LAST TIME....

hmmmm....maybe its better this way... ^^

~ sometimes i don understand timothy and....

how come they seems to be troubled by lots of stuff....

may seems to be happy at times....but...are you really happy ??

sometimes letting it out/ telling others will make you feel better....

although at times no one uds....

however if you nvr say it out...how are we gg to be able

to uds you....... SMILE MORE....

24 HOURS SMILING ! :D ~

PLACENTA =SMS CHIA ^^

IN DEEP THOUGHTS...... :pHANDSOME BOY EHHHH :DJOLYN ME :)WHICH SPECS SHOULD I WEAR ?!? HMMM..I'M TILTED ! CASS SIAO...HAH !

actually still got lots of babies photos...
hmmmm....but lazy to post...haha !!!
oh ya HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!!!! :D
we are singapore
we are singapore
we will stand tgt hear te lion roar ..... lols..haa...
shall go study now... :D

one more thing !! AUDREY IS COMING FOR BAND
FOR NEXT SEM DURING HER ATTACHMENT !!!
SO HAPPY !!! :DD
wondering how about marcus and allan...hmmmm
and i gonna meet kesha and sabina out
either after my exams or attachment !!
YIPEE !! :D

~kuku gerl says..... HELLO ! :D~

destined

i'm the doctor's chapheron for the whole morning
during their rounds today !! -_-"
sian....
learnt how to carry babies...feed..
going to nursery room tml.. :))

I FEEL BETRAYED BY YOU !

i'm like keep saying abt babies for the past few entries..
but that's e only thing i can say..
no excitement in myy life for e past few weeks..
except when i go for band..
now no more le...
took afew babies photos again ^^
those ppl who went for abbortion are so cruel ! :(
CRIES....they're being formed by you..
and u nvr let them have a chance to enjoy the happiness..sadness !
don't ever have sex if you don intend to hav babies...
you nvr know wad will happen after u do that !
so cute little baby and u abprt it....

DON EVER GIVE PPL ANY HOPE IF YOU'RE NOT
100% SURE THAT YOU CAN FULFIL IT !
IT'S A PAINFUL MOMENTS TO SEE UR
DREAMS/HOPES BEING SMASHED ...

cruel-ism...all being seen throughout this few weeks...
even if its a friendship...
and it happen on you...

confused..

take a few new babies photo....

hmmmm....

saw a 18 months old baby....

she damn cute....but damn heavy..

haha...i almost topple backwards when i carry her..

haha...CUTE >.<

hmmmm...just now on my way home i saw someone....

is he really jia liang ??

e friend that i wanna find for a very long time ??

why didn't he call me ??looked at each other but nvr sae anything...

and i just see him walk away...aren't he in clementi town secondary ??

why is he in that uniform ?? or that uniform is JC de ??

impossible arh.....

i think i thinkin too much le...this afternoon also like that...

impossible....hmmmmm....

very tired now...thurs got exam...

now i cant even concentrate...

~when's my turn gonna come ?~

haPPy

i so happy now !!!
tml going to take care of babies!!!!!! :D
but you weren't there to share the joy with me :(
you will alwaes gonna be the one inside my heart ...
the small little ...you alwaes be :D
seems like i'm an outsider to you all :(


~finally decided to join obog ^^~
dunno why i hesitating......haha..



~kuku gerl feeling so stress over you..hah :D~

siCK..emo-iNG..

i dunno you are........
i dunno where.....
where am i supposed to be....
how am i going to....
why am i not there whenever........
i know about others......but not.....
i want to be there......
how come you are e one who knows it well........
i'm getting very tired already....


我能不能就这样放弃所有的东西然后继续走下去吗？
可以还是不可以，就得看我自己的异志力了。。
是否能够忘记？放下一切？让给别人？
当我伤心，难过，想哭。。我到底该怎么做？
这样是否是解决的最好方法？还是该坚持到底?
随能来帮我解答？
或许我应该当做没发生过。。
那我的日子就会好过些。。哈哈。。
过度的劳累。。使我无法坚持到底。。
至于我那一份爱心，一份关怀。。
喜怒哀乐。。抛进大海里吧！
随能理解我？？阵在痴痴地等待。。
我能够琛多久。。还是一个疑问。。。
生命是如此的脆弱。。劲不起风吹雨打。。
你跟本不知道在何时何日别人会出卖你。。
既使做了你又能怎样？
我累了。。想要好好的休息。。
请吴打扰。。


Memories are meant to live in you. Something for you to think of while stoning. Every stage an adventure. Misses only torture people. Expectations either make people strive or live in agony. Dreaming the wrong way gives you a feeling of falling from the sky. Waiting for a promise to come true. For what reason this has to be done? Subconsciously, smiled. Consciously, stopped. Heavy footsteps. Two-sided beings. I see. I saw. I thought. Spoke the truth. Who will listen. Who will console. Who will care. Who will betray. Who are true. No answers. Immune.
[from my sister :D]

*not feeling well now =(*




~kuku gerl emo-ing~

lolx............

keep eating for this past one week...
zzz...fat pig.......so fat liao still eat...
dunno why...i feel very stress..
or is it menses comin ?!
lol ! usually can control de leh...
but nowadays cant ! haha !!
ytd after work still went to woodland's burger king and
eat with weekeng arh !! =D
after one set meal we still bought
one hershey's cake ! =D
err...don really like it...quite creamy eh ! =D
wahaha....i eat untill wanna sleepp...
cuz very tired ! :))
after eating so much...feel very guilty liao...
so went to run 6 round stadium today ^^
haha !!! going to run still later on :D
i went to make a new specs today ! =D
e colour abit outstanding huh~
out of impulse de...dunno why leh..
maybe because my sis sae she sponsor $100 :P
heehee....thankyou sister ! :D
i've nvr sae al this mushy mushy things to my family de....
errr.....haha...sounds bad....
okie...nth to blog liao....
NEXT WEEK GOING TO BABY'S WARD !!!!
LOVES :)

WHY GUYS CHANGE GIRFRIEND LIKE CHANGING CLOTHES ?
~hope you're getting on fine ^^ ~





~kuku gerl~

happy NURSES day ! :D

what for we care so much for our friends ?

they don even appreciate it....haix...

disappointed in you...totally... SIAN !

e moment i see you i feel very SIAN !

do you know that ??

anyway....today is nurses day !

haha.....went to singapore general hospital there to recieve award....

so many food to eat ! haha.....got lots of singhealth nurses too ^^

here are some of e photos taken there :))

PEOPLE QUEING UP FOR FOOD :DDOCTOR RIDING TRISHAW..NURSES ON BOARD :P

haha....next is our nurses day celebration in e ward !! :D

today is also my last day in KKH, ward 42...

hmmmm.....had my presentation just now...

but w moment i saw tt teacher...i so sian...den anyhow present...

got clowns came to our ward ehhh....haha ^^

and oh ya ! e patients in KKH is so damn polite..they wished us..

bought food for us...but....e staff nurses took it...and nvr give e student :(

met lots of NYP-ians and ex NYP-ians....

hhaha !!! :D

today i also saw how mother's milk is being produce ! :D

but didnt have the chance to see abortion :(

haix.......anyway.....nth special today....

time for pictures with clowns ! :D

~kuku gerl don want to care somuch for friends le..~

~wad for we care so much when people just dont appreciate ?~