tired of living..

how i wish i'm the one who fainted...
once fainted don't ever need to wake up...
there's so much trouble troubling me...
i'm so troubled..make me no mood to smile to my friends...
and..vienna is coming....how come i'm not excited at all ?? :(
haix..i really wish to faint..
there are simply too much things that i don wish to face...
you...the band..studies..my friends..
i just wish to turn back to the past...
this few days....dunno whether is you guys whom changed..
or am i the one who have changed ??
haix...today just don feel like talking..
actually don want to go band too...but..
haix...have to drag myself go :(
no mood to blog liao...
bye bye


~ kuku gerl seems to be different..do you care ? ~

STUPID

I'M JUST A FREAKING IDIOTIC STUPID PERSON
WHY AM I SO STUPID ??
YOU'RE JUST A NOBODY INSIDE ME...
WHY MUST I CARE ???
YOU ARE JUST A NOBODY !
GET OUT OF MY SIGHT !



~kuku gerl wants things to be changed FROM NOW ON~

TWEETY ! =D

TWEETY- YELLOW !!!
WOOO~hoo~ :)) JASON THE CRAZY !
wahahaha =D
enjoy guys =))
its my group cheer video during our may 24th band camp ! =DD
so fun ! enjoyed =D

deprieved of childhood....

abt me ! =D

What does your name mean? Your Result: LOYALTY You have mostly loyalty in your life. Others trust you because you always tell the truth. Loyalty is one of the best things in life and you got it. Wether living up to a promise or tring to help someone not live it down, your turthful hart is always happy.
Independence
JOY
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What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract artsy people! Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit 'different' from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too)
You attract geeks!
You attract models!
You attract unstable people!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract rednecks!
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band band & band...

today i never go for morning band practice wor !! :P
unable to get out of bed :(( just too tired.....
hahahah !!!! =D
hmmmmm.....went to meet kesha for lunch in e afternoon :)
we siao wann...went all e way to plaza sing to eat yoshinoya ! -_-"
wahahah.....dots rite....haha !
after eating went straight back to school to practice our instrument...
evening was our audition....haha...
mr tan was approximately 1/2 an hour late......hahah....
hmmmmm...basically..all of us get tensed up....and some screwd up...
hmmmm....but i'm sure all of us will be able to make it !
we're one band ! one big family ! :)
one for all, all for one ! =D
hmmmm...and for me...i manage to scrape through though... :))
got a C :)) though its not a very good grade...
but i know i CAN i WANT i WILL and i MUST improve on e
competition day itself ! =D
upon return...i find that he has been quite moody...
i don dare to ask....cuz he doesn't seems to reply me :((
quite sad...but, its okie lah...guess he has his reasons for not replying..
guess i'm just too annoying... :(
hmmmmm.....hope everything's fine for him yeah :))
lalahx..~ :))
I JUST LOVE MY LOVELY FRENCH HORN SECTION !!! =D
be it in regent or nyp =D
they rocks my life ! =D
though we may not be as close as other section....
but i'm glad i have you guys as my seniors... :)
really....allan, audrey, marcus, zhen jun, michelle, melia, jeremy, zhirui, si xian :))
they mean alot to me :))
hmmmmm.........sometimes i find that they're actually e ones who makes
me stay in band :)) they're my life in band :))
THANKS :))
I LOVE YOU GUYS :))
i dont like to be a senior....cuz nobody cares for me... :(
hmmmm....yet...they're leaving soon :(
dunno how am i going to spend my life in band ! :(
sabina...all leaving :( SAD...
hmmmmmmm..
anyway....i'm going to mount faber tml for hiking !
extremely excited :)) hee.....
from mount faber to west coast worrr..... :))
heehee.....lalahx.....
and tml is father's day ! i've yet to get anything for daddy ! :((
tml is kesha's dad birthday too !
happy birthday to kesha's dad !!!!! =D
okie lahx....end here liao....gonnna go study liao =))



~kuku gerl hopes you wont be so moody~

thanks ~

~if you're feeling insecure, and if you want to turn back the time
where you can make decision again by not rejecting him,
i've got nothing to say...~

sometimes things just doesn't go my way...the way i want it to be...
and who can we actually rely on ???
friends ? boyfriend ? family ? teacher ? or even stranger ?!?!?
NO ONE !
friends do betray...some are fake...
so guys...learn to be independent lahx... :))
but....i do have true friends.. *i hope*
my bandmates ! :))
and definitely my classmatessss :)
there's one friend whom i won't forget....jia min.....
get to know her since kindergarden times... :))
though sometimes we might have misunderstandings....quarrels...
BUT....there're sweet, fun moments with my friends too.... :)
*don keep grumbling abt how bad your life is...treasure every moment
with the ones you love..*
thanks~ :))

AHHHHHHH......tml have to reach outram at 9 !!!!
and my pharmaco grp is having meeting at 1030 ! shit...y always clash de... :((
sianz...zzz...hmmmm.....okok...
shall end this post now...gg to do my findings now... :))



~kuku gerl wont grumble anymore..i shall treasure every moment..~
~i really hope that we can chat...like last time...are we still friends ?? =( ~

jia you... :)

just had band practice just now...
so "xiong".....
keep running through both pieces....
and we left 14hours for practice...=(
my pecos like still cannot make it....haix....
today allan listen to e way i play for festive....
i'm so lousy.... :(
a disgrace to NYPSO french horn section....
haix....don dare to say i'm from nypso sia....
kesha's visa still haven't do yet eh.....so worry for her...
tml she's going with jokhie and the strings....hmmmm....
today den i know visa cost money sia...and it's not cheap lah !
abt $100 leh....zzz...
see her so stress like that....tired....yet i cant do anything abt it...haix...
haha....today hong ghee so random !!!!
he had a short speech after band practice ! haha =)
but its kinda touching anyway...quite encouraging :))
JIA YOU EVERYONE !
though its tiring....ppl having test, exams, attachment, presentation and sorts....
i'm sure all of us will be able to pull through !
and no one's playing is lousy alright !
practice makes perfect ! *though its easier to be said than done*
i break my folding stars record sia !
from 10am to 230pm ! i sat down there.....folding stars -_-"
haha....its a community service lah =)
so okie okie lo....not wasting time :))
met a bunch of funnny ppl =)
that guys he's so "sociable" huh.....haha :))
from swimming club de....haha :))
wad a funny chap =) he ate alot =x
hah ! but he don't grow fat !!!! *jealous*
wahahah !!!! =D i never eat much lahx...but still fat....sad case arh !
haha....tomorrow someone is coming back !! =D
guess he's on e plane now =)
get to see him soon :))
gonna end here already....take care ppl :))
don fall sick alrite ! =D
your health is definitely more important than anything else ! =D
LOVES :))




~kuku gerl hoping the best for all~

ways to success...

there's no secret to any success ! =D
you must believe in yourself ~! :)



~ kuku gerl must believe in yourself ~

wanna have a change...

haha...i've change my url already =) haha...cuz i dun wann
too many ppl to know :(
my secrete gonna be revealed if this continue ! lols !
haha...just dun wann too many ppl to read bah =)
hmmmm....
went to watch kungfu panda ytd wor ! =D
haha.....pooh, who is e panda and his dad is a duck !
wahaha ! so funny sia....duck to panda =x
den master wu gui ! =D heh heh....e shi fu !
e preying mantis =x tigress, golden monkey...haha !
so cute and funny lah ! =D
haha....after tt went to buys clothes =))
as its GSS now !!!
haha =)))
this few days went to run in e morning.....but i cant tahan lah...
morning...still need to sleep...prefer to run in e night....
can tahan longer =P heehee......
wanna aim to slim down AGAIN by this 2 weeks of holidays !
gonna have a change in myself ! =D
desired weight : 45KG
haha.......do euu think is possible ?!?!? =P
bet it on man ! =))
hahah !!!!!!!!! =D
trust me ! =D i can make it ! =)
going to band later already.....so long never play instrument le...
haha.....meeting amy at 130pm lot one =)
finally can meet out with her....
but haven meet out with yoke lian leh...
haix...this thursday someone gonna be back ! =)
haha ! =D
is it wrong to like someone.....*thinking*
how come when a guy likes a girl...they have a higher chance of being together...
likewise when a girl likes a guy...they have a lower chance...
haha....so funny sia.....why huh~
can someone tell me....haha =)
okie lahx....stop here liao =)
haha !!!!! LAMO GERL =D



~ kuku gerl wanna slim down :) ~

vienna is comin....

haha...so bo liao now....haha...
later going out with my "teacher" haha...
wanted yoke lian to accompany me deee....but she dun wann..
den initially wanted to go out with amy and yoke lian...
but amy wanted to go out with his brother....SAD...
hahaha...........
wanted to do my pharmacology now de....
in e end ended up here BLOGGING !
haha ! so stupid =x
zzz...haha ! =D
hmmmm....
left 25 days to vienna trip with e band !
and only a few practice left ! oh my.......
and before going dere....i still need to settle a few stuffs =(
1st : make up practice for my lab.. [ either advance or make up lah ]
2nd : all presentation stuffs
den once i come back from vienna, e following day is my attachment !
wahhhh......tat'll be quite tired sia....
until now....i'm not very sure if my family knows whether i'm going
vienna not....yesterday i did try to tell my mum...
whenever i say vienna this word...they start to nag....
so i shalll keep *mute* until tat day when i'm going to fly..
which is on e 4th july 9am...wondering are they going to send me off ??
haha.....or will they be angry with me...hah !!
i promise them i will do well for my exams....and i will definitely proof to them...
i don't want to disappoint anyone....
hospitals....families...lecturers.....
i shall do it and not just by saying it out...
ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS ! :)
so i shall stop blogging now....
haha....jia you yvonne ong yi wen aka kuku gerl :)




~ kuku gerl don stress arh ~

holiday shopping ?? haha.....

its the 2nd day he leaves....wonder how is he now...

hmmmm...on e day when he leaves...haha...he look so blurr when he check in =P

wahaha... =D so cute... =)

sometimes find him so cute ^^

haha....saw hafiz blog....it states that his plane reaches e place at ard 615 :)

reached safely and sound :) lalahx~ =D

guesss he's enjoying now bahx...and hope he alr recover from his flu le wor.... =)

okie...enough of him alr i guess =)

he's just a friend to me...why i bother to care so much ...haha :)

ops...so attitude....haha... :) anyway...really hope he take care of himself

and enjoy this trip with his school band =))

okie...now its my school life ! =(

haha...it's e first day of my holi wor !!!! =D

but..this holi is for us to chiong PROJECTS & STUDIES !!!!!! =((((((

so idiotic...making me so stress and hungry at all times ! haha....

keep eating...................... =(((((((((

today i drank 3 cups of milo with biscuits !!!!

and 1 packet of rice =(

STARVATION STARTS NOW !!! =)

AIM : run everyday and wanns to see e effect after 2 weeks =P

JIA YOU YVONNE ! =D

why i keep thinking abt.... when i actually don have anything to talk to him ??? =(

really dunno lah....why do i need to torture myself ??? =(

* cuz i really wann him to notice me * =(

haix.........he's graduating real soon.....and i know him for 1 yrs alr...

how come we still have nth to talk abt... =(

oh ya ! ytd i went out with joseph...all thanks to him...

we walk so far...and my leg.....arghhhh....haha =D

but he help me to carry my bag =P

THANKS JOSEPH ! =D

haha....actually thought of going to plaza sing to buy de....

but seems like it doesnt have anything to buy there...haha...

so we decided to walk to city hall lorr.. =)

on our way dere....he become a tourist !!! haha !!!

that guy walk with us for so long and mistaken me for his GF !!!

ahhhh !!! so malu....hahahaha.......... =P

hope tat guys didnt lost his way huh~ hahah !!! *evil* =P

hnmmmmmm....

walk walk walk and walk.......

we walk to raffles shopping centre's robinson and bought a neckless for kewei =)

hmmmmm......... today suppose to go for e party de....but...

i having stomach cramp very jialat =(((

so pain.........first timeeeeeeeeeee......

haix.......... =(

my mum keep saying...if euu know tat there he wont fall in love with you, den don tink abt him alr...wasting ur time......but i don wish to give up until e very last min... =( although i keep telling wee keng cass grace jolene they all say i really wanna give up =((

hahaha....thinking back.....i like nvr go out with cass grace and wee keng together sia...

some times i feel so bad....cuz i always push away =(

or last minute fly kite =6

sorry gerls~ =6

hmmmmmmm.........

爱你需要很多勇气让我知道我可以

想的太多反而不能够自己

回忆弥漫在空气中是如此甜蜜

还不能够让你动心

hafiz marcus me jolene [goodbye, marcus]

~kuku gerl hope you're enjoying now~

wow...it has been 4 days since i last blog !!! wahahah =D
today i end school damn early lah...zzz...
went for andy's lecture onlyy.....haha !!
actually got statistic tut oso.. but i woke up late...so nvr go lo=(
so guilty...haix..
hmmmm....end school at ard 11....den eat lunch with weekeng cass & grace ! :)
lalahx...den waited for eugene...haha...
we went koufu eat =P den here comes SABINA !! =D
wahahah !!!! SABINA PON LEC CUZ OF YVONNE !!!! =D
so touchhhh !!!! =D
after tat accompany sabi to her hse and take e weighing machine =)
I M SO HEAVY !!!! =(
gonna go run tml morning le sia...haha...
today nvr run eh.. =( so fat ! so uneasy....
hahahah !!!! =)
tml marcus flying le.... haix...hmmmm...next week cannot see him liao =(
so sad..haha.........weeeeeeeeeee =D
hmmmmmm....okie lah....shall end here....
take care =)




~ kuku gerl ~